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"Kiss, pookie" My absence has been a good thing. I started blogging when I needed an outlet. But, life has been good and I have been happily busy. I realized, however, that I miss writing. A lot. Summer school is over, I have a week until I go back to work, and I thought I�d try to get in the habit of updating again. I�m not even going to try to fill you in. I�m just moving forward. So, you ask, what is on my mind today? Cuddling. Yep, you know what I mean: holding hands, snuggling, patting backs, running fingers lightly through someone�s hair, maybe even little kisses or falling asleep in someone�s arms all the while feeling completely safe and protected by them. The catch is that the cuddle needs to be neither a precursor to nor an after effect of any sexual activity. I had one of those �damn I am old� moments earlier this week. I realized how long ago high school and college were and how much I really miss having that physical friendship that stopped short of anything more serious. When did I stop having cuddle buddies? I guess it was somewhere around the time that I got married. Or, maybe when I had babies and was cuddling them all the time. No matter when it was, I realized that I really miss it! Sure, I have my kids, and I cuddle them. And they cuddle back, but it�s not the same. They are my kids. I protect them. I�m married you say? True, and I can certainly cuddle with Ryan. But then again, there is always the potential that a cuddle will become a precursor to sex. It kind of ruins the cuddle moment if you have to stop and set no-sex ground rules first. I want a friend to cuddle with. I want it to be a friend who knows that it won�t go any further than that and who wants the exact same thing. I used to have that. I called them friend-boys. Lisa calls them gayfriends. She has a good point. I was thinking about it, and my friend-boys always fell into at least one of the following three categories (and frequently #3): 1) Nice Jewish boys who needed a girlfriend to make mom happy, and mom could be appeased with a nice Jewish girl who was a good friend for a while (because she would always believe that it was more than that anyway). 2) Boys who had a secure relationship and also just wanted someone to cuddle with now and then. 3) Gay boys who like having friend-girls for cuddling. Maybe friend-boys like that don�t exist outside of college dorms or summer camp. Position is open if anyone wants it! 2 comments Listening to: Sadly, Jimmy Neutron on the TV Reading: No Second Chance by Harlan Coben Eating/drinking: H2O Do what to me?!? - April 24, 2007 Wicked funny websearch - April 05, 2007 Trot out the dogs 'n ponies - March 31, 2007 Almost done... - March 20, 2007 Who am I? - March 12, 2007 READ ME |