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Can't get motivated My house needs to be cleaned. I mean, it's not even like I just need to pick up some toys and it'll be OK. Although, I do have piles of stuff everywhere that need to be put away. They've been moving all around the house for weeks now. This whole place is in need of a good dusting, scrubbing, vacuuming, and mopping. It is so dirty and disgusting that I'm almost beyond caring. I don't even know where to start cleaning anymore. I have studying to do, and a ton of physics problems to work on. It's hard to get moving on them because he doesn't collect our homework and the first test isn't until November 3rd. That sounds far away, only it's not really. Especially with all the Halloween stuff the kids have going on during the weekends between now and then. I know that I need to start working on the 60+ problems that will be on the test soon. If I don't, I won't have time to ask questions about the problems I don't understand. And, honestly, I know myself. If I leave them all until the night before the test, I won't do them. Normally, when I'm avoiding housework and homework, I'm engaged in a good book, or really busy online, or watching TV, or just out and about doing stuff. But, that's not it either. I did start a good book yesterday (Goodnight Nobody by Jennifer Weiner) but I'm not lying around reading. Even that doesn't sound appealing today. I'm not chatting (don't have the brain power to engage in conversation), I'm not web-surfing (nothing I want to look up), I'm not watching TV (don't have the patience to follow a show), I'm not out doing stuff (too tired to deal with the kids in public--besides, Bailey stayed home from school today with a bad cold)...I'm just existing. What I really wanted to do was stay home from work and sleep all day. Not because I'm so tired or because I'm sick, but simply because it sounded GOOD. If I were a shrink and I read that, I'd think "This girl is depressed." But, I don't think I am. I've been there...depression...and this isn't what it felt like. It just sounds like it when I describe my utter lack of motivation. What I really think it is...a big ol' case of PMS. There are days that I loathe my reproductive system. past | future0 comments Listening to: Reading: Eating/drinking: Do what to me?!? - April 24, 2007 Wicked funny websearch - April 05, 2007 Trot out the dogs 'n ponies - March 31, 2007 Almost done... - March 20, 2007 Who am I? - March 12, 2007 READ ME |