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Changes Sorry for teasing all of you and then making you wait 4 days for the vacation scoop. I was just worn out after 7 straight hours of running various errands with the kids on Tuesday. Wednesday was spent at Bonfante Gardens, so again I was wiped out when we got home. Then I spent the past 2 days battling a headache that off and on hit migraine status. Luckily, I�d catch it early enough to medicate before it became a major migraine and I could reduce it to a simply throbbing-behind-my-left-eye headache. Then the meds would start to wear off and I�d be right back in migraine land. Ugh! It seems to finally be gone now. So, I�m going to leave you hanging on the vacation for a bit longer. I have other stuff I want to write about right now. My brother is on his long drive to his new life in North Carolina right now. Josh, his cat, Hanky, and my mom left at the crack of dark Thursday morning. Sometime this evening they�ll roll into Chicago. My mom is flying home from there, and Josh will finish the drive alone. It�s so weird. He�s never lived more than a few hours away from me. It�s not like we see each other every day, or even talk every day, but he�s always been right there. I could call him up and make plans to see him that day, or the next. Even when he was in college at UCLA, I was living in Santa Barbara and if I timed it right, I could be there in 90 minutes to see him. For some reason, the idea that he is living all the way across the country is freaking me out. I think it�s really just all the changes that are getting to me. There are some major life altering things going on: * Bailey is out of Kindergarten and will be a full-day student next year. * I am leaving the comfort and security of a job I know for a new job. * My brother will be living in North Carolina for 2 years, and then will go where the job market takes him. * My sister is planning a wedding. These are all good things. But, it�s the weight of all of them happening at the same time that is making me want to just crawl into bed, pull up the covers, and stay there for a couple of weeks. It�s too much to get used to all at once. The topper, though, is the dose of reality that goes with it. My grandfather is pretty sick. He�s got a pacemaker in, but it�s not really doing what it needs to be doing. So, he�s in a slow heart failure. The slowness of it is what�s just eating at me. Not that I want him to die, but if it�s going to happen, I don�t want it to be this slow process that leaves him miserable. That is awful for everyone. Thank goodness that my mom and brother will be in Chicago to see him. My sister and her fianc�, Greg, are there visiting right now, too. We were tying to plan a trip out there this summer, but with the job stuff still uncertain when fares were at their lowest, I told Ryan not to book a flight. Maybe I�ll try to go alone. Buying 4 plane tickets really needs to be done when fares are low. Perhaps a good jolt of Starbucks will help� It won�t change anything, but it will make me happy! past | future0 comments Listening to: Reading: Eating/drinking: Do what to me?!? - April 24, 2007 Wicked funny websearch - April 05, 2007 Trot out the dogs 'n ponies - March 31, 2007 Almost done... - March 20, 2007 Who am I? - March 12, 2007 READ ME |